Throwing stones lately

[jjmaccrimmon]

After yesterday's disasters (more on that tomorrow), I found out today that I'm an insensitive ass from someone who promised that they would communicate with me for good and bad. Another complete stranger, who doesn't know me or my background for shit told me I was a liar. Just f-ing great. You want to know how I feel? My stomach's been in knots since Saturday night. My kids have been walking on eggshells since Saturday's exploration (concerned that they did the wrong thing). Needless to say, we stayed home today. I editted and uploaded 450 photos. Now my back is as f-ed up as my stomach.

I believe the video says how I feel and how I felt far better than I can or will.

Edit since the embed didn't work right.
http://www.youtube.com/v/AO9dbmJ_2zU

Signing off for the night...



I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear my crown of shit
Upon my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way