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May. 20th, 2008
Family Notes and Motes
May. 20th, 2008 09:04 amUnemployment and the large amount of time at home has given me a lot of time to think about the past, present and future.
In the past, I've wondered why people I respected, were friends with and sometimes even deeply cared about have taken a hostile attitude to me. It took the words and explanation of a new and very dear friend to help me understand what I hadn't been seeing or perhaps better saying well. She pointed out to me that ever so often I phrase things or comment on a subject in a way that's phrased innocently enough to me, but because of how it come out or is taken, it comes off as just insulting enough to annoy someone. Fortunately she understood and actually explained this to me. It's frustrating because in Southern California, many people here never truly speak their minds and are far too quick to take offense. :: sigh :: On a wider subject, it would explain some things about my poor relationship with certain groups in the Kingdom of Caid, namely the OWS.
In thinking about this, it makes me wonder how many people I've inadvertently pissed off or even in thinking of last year at this time how things might have been different. Yes, color me stupid, but I still think about that young lady on occasion even though she regards me or the relationship as a mistake. Feelings ran/run deep even if that is over.
The present is so unsettled I'm not sure what to think. I’m still waiting on the place in Ridgecrest to send me the written offer and employment documents. I’ll call them today to see what’s happened. The company out at Edwards continues to check backgrounds and work on the selection or so I’m told. I e-mailed them moments ago. There is interest from companies in Huntsville, AL and Seattle, WA. Right now, I’ll take whatever I can. I genuinely believe that someone in Lockheed HR has been implying more to potential employers than what they told me at the termination meeting. If this is the case, I have a potential EEOC complaint to file. Joy… I just want a job and a means to support my family, is that so fricken hard?
After several twists and turns, I bought the tickets for the kids to fly over to visit their mom. The travel fund was spared a little because the ticket agent was willing to waive the rules for Brenna to travel as the adult in charge of Chris. The kids are getting excited. If anything the recent hot snap we’ve had here (102 F on Sunday), has made them long for the cooler summer with their mom. They head out on the 10th June. The kids are doing well else wise. Brenna is going to special movie feature tonight with friends. It’s a treat but a well earned out. She and Chris helped move a friend’s plants and such from San Diego to Oxnard Saturday. We’ll be back down in Oxnard next Saturday to help more.
The future.. Back on my birthday, I wrote that the future held hope for me despite the rough patches that I’d just pasted through (relationship wise). I still have hope that things should improve but my energy and exuberance is suffering from this ridiculous delay in employment. Funds are holding up but I can’t help be upset that those moneys would have been better invested or saved for other things.
Coronation is coming up on the 7th and there I will get to see my friend and associate Don Kelan step up to the SCA peerage of Pelican. It’s well deserved for him. I won’t mention what contributions I made, but I’m very very happy that he finally have been noticed for the good things he’s done and done and done …
Well that’s enough for now. Life’s been drama free lately and I’m happy for that.
In the past, I've wondered why people I respected, were friends with and sometimes even deeply cared about have taken a hostile attitude to me. It took the words and explanation of a new and very dear friend to help me understand what I hadn't been seeing or perhaps better saying well. She pointed out to me that ever so often I phrase things or comment on a subject in a way that's phrased innocently enough to me, but because of how it come out or is taken, it comes off as just insulting enough to annoy someone. Fortunately she understood and actually explained this to me. It's frustrating because in Southern California, many people here never truly speak their minds and are far too quick to take offense. :: sigh :: On a wider subject, it would explain some things about my poor relationship with certain groups in the Kingdom of Caid, namely the OWS.
In thinking about this, it makes me wonder how many people I've inadvertently pissed off or even in thinking of last year at this time how things might have been different. Yes, color me stupid, but I still think about that young lady on occasion even though she regards me or the relationship as a mistake. Feelings ran/run deep even if that is over.
The present is so unsettled I'm not sure what to think. I’m still waiting on the place in Ridgecrest to send me the written offer and employment documents. I’ll call them today to see what’s happened. The company out at Edwards continues to check backgrounds and work on the selection or so I’m told. I e-mailed them moments ago. There is interest from companies in Huntsville, AL and Seattle, WA. Right now, I’ll take whatever I can. I genuinely believe that someone in Lockheed HR has been implying more to potential employers than what they told me at the termination meeting. If this is the case, I have a potential EEOC complaint to file. Joy… I just want a job and a means to support my family, is that so fricken hard?
After several twists and turns, I bought the tickets for the kids to fly over to visit their mom. The travel fund was spared a little because the ticket agent was willing to waive the rules for Brenna to travel as the adult in charge of Chris. The kids are getting excited. If anything the recent hot snap we’ve had here (102 F on Sunday), has made them long for the cooler summer with their mom. They head out on the 10th June. The kids are doing well else wise. Brenna is going to special movie feature tonight with friends. It’s a treat but a well earned out. She and Chris helped move a friend’s plants and such from San Diego to Oxnard Saturday. We’ll be back down in Oxnard next Saturday to help more.
The future.. Back on my birthday, I wrote that the future held hope for me despite the rough patches that I’d just pasted through (relationship wise). I still have hope that things should improve but my energy and exuberance is suffering from this ridiculous delay in employment. Funds are holding up but I can’t help be upset that those moneys would have been better invested or saved for other things.
Coronation is coming up on the 7th and there I will get to see my friend and associate Don Kelan step up to the SCA peerage of Pelican. It’s well deserved for him. I won’t mention what contributions I made, but I’m very very happy that he finally have been noticed for the good things he’s done and done and done …
Well that’s enough for now. Life’s been drama free lately and I’m happy for that.
